i realise that you mean so much to me. so much more than i ever knew you did; so much more than you'll ever know you do. and boy how the truth speaks when you only realise such things in times of desperation. how those tears fell the way i never thought they would. how you made me tremble when i never thought i could. and i realise, that unguardedly i've let you into my walls. unguardedly i've come to trust you. and so the thought of you, ever leaving scared me. you haven't let me down, i dont think you will. but im sorry, im withdrawing. i cannot trust nomore. i cannot be so scared nomore. only He knows. but that dont mean you dont mean nothing to me. like i said, you mean so much more than you'll ever know; yeah, to me you still will.